First walk

On August 23 when he was 4 days old nana and I took Jackson on his first little walk in his stroller! He's so itty bitty in there! We just walked down the street to the mail box to get the mail and he loved being in the stroller! Yesterday we took a little longer walk, to the mail box and then continued around the block. He loved it once again!

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1 week!

Jackson is 1 week old! And his umbilical cord stump fell off during the night! In the middle of the night it was just barley hanging there about to fall off and this morning it was off! My baby is growing too fast!



Well now I don't have to fold down his newborn diapers! Yes he's that tiny that I had to fold them down to go under it!

Today we are going and having his newborn pics taken!!! And since the picture studio is right by my work we are going to go in there after the pictures! I want to show him off to some of my friends!

Last night was a little rough. I fed him and then left him downstairs with my mom until he needed to be fed again so I could get some sleep. I went down at 11 and fed him and then brought him upstairs to go to bed. He would not sleep! I fed him at 1:30 and he still wouldn't sleep. And then fed him again at 2:15 and he finally went to sleep after that. And he sleep until after 7am! So the second half of the night was better. But at 2 am I was in tears. I didn't know what to do. I was so tired and he wouldn't sleep. I knew everything was fine, I was just hormonal, but it was rough. I was scared he wasn't going to go to sleep at all! But he did and I was able to get a good solid chunk of sleep! Yay!

I just love this little guy so much!!!

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First bath

On August 22 we gave Jackson his first bath at home! It was just a sponge bath since he still has his umbilicord stump. He hated it. Poor baby. I'm sure he'll learn to love baths! And of course as soon as we were drying him off he peed all over!
Getting undressed


Into the bath


Getting clean


Screaming


Getting dried off


Getting dressed


Happy now!





Elephant butt


First time getting his hair brushed, he likes it!

38 weeks - 6 days old!

I'm not sure exactly what my last weight was before giving birth because I hadn't weighed myself in a few weeks but going off what I weighed at my last dr appointment I'm going to say I ended up being 14 pounds below my pre pregnancy weight and only gaining back 6 pounds from the weight I lost in the beginning of my pregnancy. So I ended at 210 pounds. 2 days ago (I think that's when I weighed myself) I was at 200, and this morning I am at 197.4! I'm not doing anything different, other then breastfeeding! I am eating healthier because I'm at home and I had my mom get bread, sandwich meats, cheese and fruit for lunches, so that's healthier then what I would take to work and much healthier then fast food. For dinners we've been having usual foods that we'd have before. I've also been eating cookies. As each day and week goes by I plan on getting healthier with my eating and being more active. Today we walked around the block, short walk but it felt good to get out and each time I'll go a little further! And Jackson loves being in the stroller. I'm not going to worry about what I'm eating though until we have breastfeeding down. It's going well but we are both still learning, so for now I'll eat when I'm hungry and eat what I want but try to make it healthy! I also tried on some of my clothes today to try to find something to wear for pictures tomorrow and my pre pregnancy clothes fit, and a lot of the stuff fits better then it did pre pregnancy! And I know it will only get better as my stomach tightens/gets smaller and as I lose some weight! I'm hoping that breast feeding will help me lose some weight during these next 5 weeks before I can start working out.

Now on to baby boy! OMG! I am so in love with this little man! I still need to write about his birth story, but I will do that soon! He is so perfect and so precious! I feel like pretty much all I do right now is feed him, but that's fine with me! I know as he grows and we find a rhythm he will eat more quickly and not as often! I could just sit and stare at him forever!







Sucking on my finger!



So tiny in his rock and play sleeper!


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37 weeks and 1 day

My water started leaking Sunday 8/18 at about 10:15 pm and Jackson was born on 8/19 at 7:34 am, 6 lbs 10 oz, 18 1/2 inches long and perfect!






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37 weeks!

How far along? 37 weeks

Total weight gain/loss: not sure, I haven't weighed myself

Maternity clothes? Mainly

Sleep: pretty decent lately...except one morning my alarm was set for 8am, I didn't have to be at work until 1pm and I was awake before 5:30 am and could not go back to sleep. It sucked

Best moment this week: being full term!

Movement: yes, some days more then others, I think he's running out of room in there!

Food cravings: cheese quesadilla dipped in sour cream and cholula! Yum

Gender: boy

Labor Signs: Braxton hicks, sometimes they get more consistent and more uncomfortable when near the end of a long day at work, but they always calm down once I relax/sit down. I'm feeling a lot of pressure down there though anytime I'm on my feet

Belly Button in or out? In

What I miss: sushi

What I am looking forward to: meeting my baby boy soon!


Milestones: being full term!

I'm so ready to have this baby. The doctor said anyway now and I think if he was concerned with it being to early he would tell me to rest more or something. Seems like he's confident that Jackson will be perfectly healthy if he comes anytime now. While I know I'm not as big and uncomfortable as I could be, I really don't know how I'm going to make it through 3 more weeks of work. Even 2 more weeks of work sounds horrible (that's when my mom will be here). I would really like to have him after my mom gets here on the 29th, but at the same time I don't know if I can wait that long. I know he'll come when he's ready to come no matter what I want so if I have to wait 3 weeks I don't have a choice, but I'd much rather have him sooner then later. I'm so ready to have him. There's only so much cleaning, scrubbing and organizing I can do before I'm just cleaning/organizing the same things over again. I'm caught up on laundry, the house is as clean as its going to get, I'm ready. So ready. And I feel bad for that on my moms part because I know if he comes before the 29th she'll be scrambling to get here. She'll do whatever it takes to get here ASAP, change her flight or even drive, and I really want and need her here for labor and delivery. BUT I am ready to do this! So he'll come when he comes and hopefully she'll be able to make it here in time for his birth, and if she doesn't I know she'll be able to get here while we're still in the hospital. I just can't wait to meet and hold my son!

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Current "craving"

I say "craving" because when I think pregnancy cravings I imagine a pregnant woman being like "I have to have that right now!" And will go out of her way, or make her husband go get it, and I have not had any cravings like that. Not to that extreme. It's more like something just sounds so good and its all I want to eat, nothing else sounds good at that moment, and sometimes I'll keep thinking about it until I get to eat it.

Anyways, my craving has been for a cheese quesadilla, that I make at home just shredded cheese on a tortilla, topped with another tortilla and heated up to melt the cheese. Not too odd, something I'll occasionally eat when I'm not pregnant if we have that stuff on hand. It's a quick easy meal. Well I've been dipping it in sour cream and cholula hot sauce. I put sour cream and cholula on tacos and stuff, but I'd never done it with a quesadilla before and it is so good! I'm obsessed with this meal lately!


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9 months

I can't believe I'm 9 months pregnant. Most of the time I don't feel like I am! I've been SO lucky/blessed during my pregnancy and that I've had such an easy/uncomplicated 9 months. While I have my moments where I feel huge, I also have many moments that I feel like I don't even look that pregnant. I often look in the mirror an feel like I just look fat and not pregnant, I think that's mainly because my belly button is still an innie and I just don't feel like my belly looks like the belly of someone 9 months preggo. My husband thinks I'm delusional about that and says I look very pregnant! But I still think my bump is smaller then it could be, and I'm glad for that most of the time, I think it would be a lot harder work wise if my belly was bigger! I also don't "feel" pregnant all the time. Of course being on my feet all day at work isn't one of those times! By the end of the work day I usually feel very pregnant. And getting out of bed to pee at night I feel very pregnant! But occasionally I think to myself "I don't even feel pregnant right now". I think that the fact that I was pretty comfortable for the first 2 trimesters and have only been getting super uncomfortable occasionally during the past few weeks has me thinking "how is it possible I'm 9 months pregnant?!" While I have my moments where I feel SO pregnant and uncomfortable, its not that often and its only really been happening recently. I feel like most women at this point in their pregnancy feel done. They haven't been sleeping well for months, they've been uncomfortable and in pain for months and they are just ready to be done. I don't really feel that way. I have my moments and days where I wonder how I'm going to make it through however many weeks are left of work (this week it's 3+), but overall I'm feeling pretty good. I'm still sleeping pretty well and able to still sleep the way I'm used to sleeping, aside from the occasion bad night.

Sometimes I think I'm just so ready to meet my son that I'm ready to be done! I'm ready to go into labor and meet my baby boy!

And other times I think there's no way I'm about to have a baby, there's no way it's already been 9 months!

I really want my mom to be here when I go into labor. And she's planning on making her flight reservation for around August 29 because that's when it's cheapest. If I go into labor sooner she'll either change her flight or says she'll even drive here if she has to (about a 10 hour drive). So I want him to stay put until she gets here, but at the same time I think "there's no way I'm going to make it to August 29!" I don't know why I feel that way. I very easily could have him closer to my due date or even on or after my due date. I have August 24th stuck in my head, but I'm not putting much into that!

I guess only time will tell and he'll come when he comes.

But just in case I plan on getting as much done as I can this weekend! Cleaning house, pedicure, getting the swing out of the garage and cleaning it up and getting it set up, washing my moms bedding and towels for her room, getting any last minute things we need and getting my bag ready to go when the time comes! I'm making a don't forget list to put somewhere we'll see it so we don't forget the last minute things!

I can't wait to meet my baby boy soon!


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Utah baby shower

On Sunday some friends from work threw me a baby shower! It was super cute and small. I knew it would be small. I knew that not a lot of people would come. They did it on a Sunday because that's the only day that our work is closed so they figured more people would make it. But a lot of my co workers (including 2 that threw the shower) are Mormon and didn't want to miss church. Awhile back they did a shower for my friend Natalie at work, on a Saturday, and only myself and 2 other people from work went. There were about 8 people at mine, so pretty good! I'm just glad people came! It was so nice to just sit and eat and chat with other women. I don't get that enough here in utah. I don't really have friends outside of work, and I really want to work harder at making my relationships with my friends at work more outside of work friendships! My friend Denise and I are going to get pedicures this Saturday! And I'm sure once Jackson is here I will hang out with Natalie and her almost 5 month old daughter!

Here are a few pics of the super cute decor:





















I took these before anyone really got there. It was kind if a nautical/fish theme and so adorable!

I got some cute outfits, a few toys, a target gift card and some diapers!

It was fun and I'm so thankful to have awesome friends here that threw it for me!

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36 weeks

How far along? 36 weeks and 1 day
Total weight gain/loss: not sure. I haven't weighed myself this week and I can't remember exactly what the difference is between my home scale and the one at the dr, I was weighed there today but I never really pay attention to the number on there scale
Maternity clothes? Yep
Sleep: last night was horrible! I was so uncomfortable and my stomach was hurting no matter how I laid. Hopefully it was just a fluke
Best moment this week: being 9 months prego!
Movement: yes and becoming a bit more painful
Food cravings: not really. I feel like I've been less hungry the past few days and nothing really sounds that great
Gender: boy
Labor Signs: not exactly. I'll explain below about today's appointment!
Belly Button in or out? In
What I miss: sushi! Wine! Being able to bend over and lean forward while sitting without being uncomfortable and being kicked in the ribs
What I am looking forward to: meeting my baby boy!!!
Milestones: being 9 months preggo!
So I had my 36 appointment today and it was the first time I got checked! First the nurse did the usual and gave me a sheet to cover up with and told me I'd get undressed from the waist down. She also said that a student dr was working with my dr today and would it be ok if he came in and did the heartbeat and checked my belly and then if he came in with the dr and observed while he checked me. I said I was fine with that. So I got undressed and the student dr came in and found the heartbeat and he measured my belly. My dr has never measured me, he always just feels and guesses the weight. So it was nice to get measured! I measured at 37 weeks, so 1 week ahead. Then my dr came in with the student dr and nurse and he did the group B swab and then checked me. I am 1 cm dilated, 70% effaced/thinned out, my cervix is soft and his head is really low. The 1cm isn't a big deal and I know I could be at a 1 for weeks, but combined with the rest he made it sound like I'm going to have this baby sooner rather then later! He said it could be any day now. He doesn't think I'll make it to my due date, but he thinks he will see me at my appointment next week. I know that doesn't mean much, it could be next week, it could be right before my due date...only time will tell.
Up until today I've been very worried or kinda scared when my contractions have become more frequent or when they've become more uncomfortable or if I've had any cramping or different pain. But today (before my appointment) my mind set has completely changed. Previously if that happened I'd try to slow down at work and take it easy for a little bit, but now I'm like "let's get this show on the road!" The more I do the better to get things moving along right?! Even if I feel like my contractions are becoming more frequent (still not time able or painful, but starting to get more uncomfortable) I used to slow down, walk slower, but now I walk fast and think it can only help right?! This weekend I have Saturday so I want clean the house and get all the last minute things done and my father in law is coming into town on Sunday (for work) and we are having dinner with him so I'd like to not go into labor until after that, but after that its game on! I think I may start walking the dogs in the evening after work to get even more walking in! Maybe some squats? Jumping? It'll be operation "get this baby out" in full effect! I'm hoping to see some progress at my next appointment on Tuesday!
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30th birthday!

Today I turned 30. I'm not really sure how I feel about it. But I did have a good birthday! Other then having to work. After work I talked to my best friend, Katharine, we've been friends since kindergarden...so for 25 years! Then josh took me out to dinner to longhorn steakhouse because I wanted steak (since I can't have what I really want-sushi and wine or beer and sake)! And he also got me a carvel ice cream cake! My favorite! It was a simple quite birthday and I feel like it was perfect for this time in our lives! Previous bdays have been all about going out and drinking and this one was just about enjoying dinner together. We're about to have a baby so it was pretty symbolic of what's ahead. Leaving the nights of going out drinking behind (although I'm sure we'll enjoy nights like that in the future while Jackson is with nanna, they won't happen very often) and trading them for simple quiet evenings, more then likely at home and not so quiet with a baby I'm sure, but I can feel our lives changing in the simplest ways. What was once important to us no longer is. Going out and getting drunk on my birthday no longer sounds fun (although enjoying a few glasses of wine or beers would nice!) I'd rather do exactly what we did tonight. And while I'm kinda of sad that I didn't get to have some kind of bigger celebration back home with family and friends to celebrate the big 30, I'm ok with it and happy with it.

Today while talking to my best friend we were talking about my trip home in October. We will be there the weekend following her 30th birthday and her sister is planning a party/celebration of some sort. She and her boyfriend have been together for 7+ years but they don't have kids and neither of her older sisters have kids so I said of course I'll be there...as long as I can bring a baby! And she said of course it'll be somewhere somewhere baby friendly because I'll be brining Jackson and Michelle will bring Lexi (another friend and her 2 month old). It was just so strange to have that conversation when for so many years the bday planning conversations were more along the lines of what bar/club are we going to? And whose the designated driver? It's another way I'm feeling my life change, in a very good way. I've waited to long for this and I'm so happy about this next chapter I'm about to embark on. I feel like a grown up :).


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Less then a month! And turning 30

I can officially say that my due date is less then a month away! Crazy! Today is my 30th birthday and I'll be having my baby in less then a month (unless he decides to wait until after his due date to make his appearance!). I feel like he will come early though. I could be totally wrong, but its just a feeling I have. My mom won't be coming until the 29th though, so hopefully he stays put until then, although for some weird reason August 24th is sticking out in y mind. I'm sure if I go into labor before the 29th my mom will change her flight and get here ASAP! I know she doesn't want to miss the birth of her grandson! And I don't want her to miss it! I need her! She's not just my mom, but my best friend too and I know I will want and need her support in the delivery room!

I'm not quite sure how I feel about turning 30. Growing up I thought 30 was so old! I thought 29 was the last year to be young and once you turned 30 you were old and boring. I don't feel old though. And as I watched my older sisters turn 30 (they are 10 and 13 years older then me) I realized that 30 really isn't old, but the thoughts from my childhood have stuck with me I guess. I'm kind of bummed that I can't go eat sushi and drink wine for my birthday though! But I'm happy to be pregnant, and so close to meeting my baby boy! I think my 30's are going to be great! My early 20's were all about me and having fun, my late 20's were all about me and my husband and our life together, and my 30's are going to be all about our family! OUR family! I feel like I've waited so long to make our little family of just me and hubby into a family with kids! Hopefully my 30's will bring another baby (or 2!) and a lot of fun!


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Getting things done!

Today I took my car and got it cleaned inside and out! And then I installed the carseat base!



I'm not leaving the carseat in the car, I'm going to put the carseat with the hospital bags. I still have over 4 weeks until my due date and if I was in a car accident, which hopefully won't happen, before I have the baby I don't want the carseat in the car because it can damage it. I don't foresee that happening but just in case. We will also probably get a second base for Josh's car before the baby is born and that way we can just grab the bags and carseat and take either car to the hospital. For now we decided to put it in my car and if we don't get another base before he's born we will just make sure to take my car to the hospital. Or Josh and/or my mom can always get the base or switch cars or whatever needs to be done depending on the situation!

I want to get the pack and play put together today too! I just have to get Josh to take it from the garage to the basement. Right now our living room is in the basement and we aren't using the upstairs living room, but as soon as my mom moves here we will be moving our stuff upstairs and she will have the whole basement (bedroom, bathroom, and living room). But there is no way we can get the couch upstairs on our own and she will be coming in about 2 weeks and then going back to CA around September 19 for my brothers wedding and to finish up packing and everything and then moving here so we are going to wait until she's moving here to move our living room upstairs. We are hoping that the movers she hires will be able to help get our couch upstairs when they move her stuff here. I wish we could just get everything moved before the baby, but that's not going to happen so I will just set up the pack and play down there for now!

Things left to-do:
*finish packing hospital bags
*get batteries for swing and rocking/bouncy seat
*wash any baby items that still need to be washed-after my baby shower on Sunday
*get swing out of garage and clean it up or get new swing
*clean house
*make freezer meals

I'm sure there's more but I'm not remembering at the moment!!


I'm torn about the swing. We have a pretty old swing that a friend of my sisters gave her and she gave me. It's been sitting in storage and our garage for over 4 or 5 years so I don't know if it even works still. I also have no idea where the cushion is for it. So I might buy a new one. I added one to my registry and I can use my registry completion coupon to get it so we will see!

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35 weeks

How far along? 35 weeks!

Total weight gain/loss: this morning the scale was up 2 pounds from a week ago...but I don't think it's very accurate...I haven't pooped in days

Maternity clothes? Yes

Sleep: some nights are good. I've taken unisom a few times to ensure a goods night sleep. One night I didn't and it was horrible, I pretty much just tossed and turned all night thinking about everything I want and need to do before Jackson gets here and the possibility of running out of time, or him coming early before I get it all done. But I made a list and there are only a few things that really need to get done before he gets here, everything else can wait if I don't get to it, so that made me feel better

Best moment this week: yesterday- being 35 weeks preggo and having 35 weeks left!

Movement: yes. He tried out the left side a few times but seems to have gone back to preferring being on my right side. Last night laying in bed you could tell! My belly was lopsided!

Food cravings: nothing really lately...except I discovered these twix ice creams and OMG...I could eat a whole box of them in one sitting if I let myself! Which is weird because sweets, especially ice cream haven't really been that good since I've been preggo

Gender: boy

Labor Signs: nope. Still have Braxton hicks contractions but they are just uncomfortable sometimes

Belly Button in or out? In still

What I miss: not getting up to pee a million times a night! And my 30 bday is this week and I'm more upset about not being able to have sushi and wine then I am about turning 30!

What I am looking forward to: finishing up my must do list, my mom coming in a few weeks and most of all meeting my little man soon! Although I'm going to miss having him inside me and feeling his move

Milestones: being 35 weeks preggo!


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It's August!!!

Holy crap!!! It's August 1!!!! I'll be 37 weeks/full term in just 18 days!!! My due date is in 38 days!!! If Jackson is born just 9 days (or more) before his due date he will be born this month!!! I think there is a strong possibility of him being born this month! And its a great month to be born! August is a big month in my family! Myself (9th), my brother (13th), two of my cousins (6th and 31st) and my cousins wife (cant remember the date right now) all have birthdays this month!

Either way I'll be having a baby either this month or next month and that is crazy!!!! I better get my butt moving to finish everything on my to-do list before I have him! My goal is to finish by 37 weeks! Anything I get done after that is a bonus, but I want the necessities done before 37 weeks to make sure it gets done!


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