Photo catch up

Eating pancakes!








I made him his very own ball pit!


























I let him try a strawberry!





Trying (and loving) pizza crust!











The weather was so nice we started going on a morning walk/jog...but today it's cold again :(


First shorts outfit!














Hanging out with daddy!

Moving into the condo!

Not sure where I left off or what I've written about our move from utah back to CA but it's been a crazy few weeks. I tried to stay at Josh's parents and just couldn't. I didn't feel very comfortable or welcome there. They were on vacation out of the country when Jackson and I got there and I figured he had told them we would be staying there too, but he didn't. So they got home and were surprised that we were there. Their house is not baby friendly at all and despite it being a large house their was no room for us because they have so much stuff...so Jackson and I went to my grandmas and stayed there. My brother and his wife went to Mexico for work for a week so they offered up their house for is to stay, so for the past week we've been at his house and it's been so nice to all be together and have space. Josh and I slept in their guest room and Jackson slept in the room that Sami does/trains Pilates and yoga in so it's an empty room. I was able to set up his pack and play and diaper changing station on the floor and have his clothes in there. The get back tonight so I'm cleaning up, washing the sheets and towels, and packing up to go back over to my grandmas. BUT we will be moving into the condo on Friday! A misunderstanding with the moving company had our stuff on our way to us before we wanted it. Originally we had planned on moving in this weekend but with all the issues we've had with closing on our house in utah we decided to put it off until the next weekend to make sure we'd have the money for everything in time...well the moving company called to say our stuff would be delivered on Friday. We called our soon to be landlord (a realtor that owns the townhouse/condo we'll be renting) and she agreed to let us get the keys on Thursday night and move in on Friday. We're having to burrow money from my mom to do all this since we still haven't closed on the house and then as soon as we close we'll pay her back.

Selling our house in utah has been a huge headache, one thing after another has gone wrong. The latest is that they didn't have adequate funds to show to the bank (401k etc) so they had to have family wire them money to show they had what the bank wanted. They were supposed to sign the paperwork last night and josh is supposed to sign everything today, we haven't heard from our realtor yet but I'm hoping and praying that they did actually sign last night and josh can sign today and we can be done! Its just been a disaster.

But I can't wait to get into the condo. Have all of our stuff. Sleep in our own beds and get back into our routine! But I need to find a job. We can't afford to live there without me bringing in some money so I need to find something ASAP. I'd really like to babysit out of our home, but I haven't been able to find anything yet, so I might have to find something where I can work when josh can be home with J, like afternoon/evenings and weekends. I'm going to keep trying to find a babysitting job, but I'll have to start looking at other jobs too.


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5k

Two months from yesterday I will be running my first 5k! It's something I've always wanted to do once I get in shape, but my best friend and her sisters signed up for it and she asked me if I wanted to. So I bit the bullet and signed up. We are doing the couch to 5k training program that is 8 weeks long and we have almost 9 weeks until the 5k. I'm hoping I can lose some weight and be prepared for this, and do decently in it.

I'm going to be house sitting for nick and Sami for 8 days and I'll be taking full advantage if their garage gym! And as soon as we get into our place I plan in doing the couch to 5k or going on a walk on off days AND doing a workout video everyday. I really need to work on my nutrition and get my eating (especially snacking) under control. I need to make a plan and stick to it. Costco has really good salads and they are inexpensive so I plan on stocking up on them. I actually got 6 today and had one for lunch. I need to make healthier dinner for josh and I. I really want to start trying to have another baby but I want to lose some major weight first. My goal is to be able to go shopping and buy some cute and stylish outfits to wear during the holidays and feel confident and good about myself in them! So that's almost 4 months to do some major damage!


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A place in SCV

We've been looking on a few websites for places to rent and haven't had much success. We came across a few scams and a lot of places we can't afford. There was a house that would have been perfect...but there was a waiting list and we would have been #28 on that list. So today we went to look at apartments. We looked at the first place, kinda old, not great, especially for the price. We went to lunch and dropped J with my mom to play and take a nap. We decided to go look at The Colony Townhouses...where me and an ex boyfriend were roommates with josh 10 years ago...yeah...kinda weird...but they are really nice. You get a lot for your money there. And they were the same price as the places we looked at earlier. We decided to just do it. We filled out the applications and got everything set up. It's a 3 story townhome with garage and laundry on first floor. Front door, patio, kitchen, dining area, living room and half bath on second floor. 2 bedrooms with their own bathrooms and balcony on 3rd floor. Garage and washer/dryer were on our must have list. We like the layout and the area, plus it has nice finishes and feels clean and new so it feels more homey. Our background checks should come thru Monday and Josh needs to take them 4 pay stubs as proof of income and then we'll sign the lease agreement. I don't see anything going wrong so hopefully everything will be good to go and our move in date will be September 6, 2 weeks from now. I can't wait to get in there with our own stuff and have our own space and get settled in and organized. We are signing a 1 year lease. As much as I loved having my mom living with us in Utah I'm exited/ready/happy for it to be just josh, me and Jackson. I know josh didn't love my mom living with us so I really think it'll be good for our little family and help our relationship. But the rent is still more then what our mortgage plus homeowners together was in Utah and money will be really tight. For this to work I really need to bring in some money to help us. I've applied at the gym that Sami works at to work in the childcare but I haven't heard anything yet. I'm really hoping to get a job there. I think it would work out really well and I would get a free gym membership there! Kat belongs to that gym so we could work out together! If that doesn't pan out then I will be looking to babysit.

So while finding a place and looking forward to getting into it and getting our family back together (he's at his parents and me and J are at my gma's) it's also a little stressful thinking about the cost and being able to manage it! I'm hoping and praying things are going to work out well for us!


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Moving

Tonight is my last night in our home. Today we dropped off the cable boxes at the comcast store and picked up the uhaul trailer that I'm towing behind my car. I finished packing up J's nursery and it made me a little sad. I'm so happy to be moving back to CA, but that little room was so sweet. It's the room I created for my baby boy. His very first bedroom. It made me sad to pack it all up, not knowing where we'll end up in CA. While I'm happy to be leaving I'll miss our first home.

Utah is a beautiful place and I've loved to experience the seasons (SNOW!!!) but it isn't home. Before we had J it wasn't too bad, but since having him we've really realized that this isn't where we want to raise our kids. I've had a really hard time making friends here. I'm sure maybe I could have tried harder and become friendlier with my Mormon neighbors, but let's be real, they're never going to go out for a girls night with me for a few drinks or BBQ and have some margaritas and beer with us. I want weekend BBQs where I make the latest fruity drink I find on Pinterest and the guys drink beer and our kiddos play...we're not going to find that here. We need friends. We need fun. We need to feel like we fit in and not majorly stand out.

But I'd be lying if I said I wasn't scared. It's so expensive in CA! And with me not working we're barely making it as it is. I'll have to find something to do to make money. Hopefully watch someone's child in our home. If we ever have a home. We'll be staying Josh's parents for a month or so to save some money and look for a place to live. But a 2 bedroom apartment is more expensive then the mortgage on our 4 bedroom house. And I REALLY want to have another baby in the near future, but how in the world are we going to do that.

It's going to be crazy, scary, and exciting. CA here we come!


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Breastfeeding

I've been having a hard time getting J to nurse for over month. Sometimes he'd nurse just fine but most of the time he just wasn't interested. At first I thought it was a nursing strike, I stuck with it and after a few days it got better. Then it got worse again. I have some frozen milk so I started giving him that in a sippy cup and he took it well, but I didn't have enough to get us to a year. So I talked to our pedi last week and he said we could start milk. I try to nurse him first thing in the morning and once or twice throughout the day and at bedtime but he just doesn't want to. Usually first thing in the morning he nurses well, the rest of the day he has his sippy cup and is perfectly happy with that. Usually he's excited about nursing first thing in the morning he pulls out his pacifier and gets excited. Well this morning he refused to nurse. He got excited, pulled out his bink and once he started nursing he pulled away and looked at me like I was crazy and grabbed his bink and put it back in his mouth. I tried again after his nap, he grabbed my boob, pushed it away and looked at me like I was crazy. He wanted nothing to do with it. He didn't nurse one single time today. Over the past few days, each time he nursed, I thought "this could be the last time." So I've savores those moments. I'm happy to have my body back. I've struggled to lose weight while breastfeeding and now I can focus on that before we start trying for baby #2. I can have a girls night! I can easily leave him with my mom for a date night with Josh! BUT no matter how hard I try to convince myself I'm not, I'm sad. I already miss it. I want him to wake up and I want to nurse him back to sleep. My baby isn't a baby anymore and I miss it...but I also love who he is right now and the stage he's in right now. I know I'm not done having babies so, god willing, I will be able to nurse another baby (or 2) and that eases the sadness. I guess I just can't believe that it's over. It feels like his babyhood is over. He's becoming such a little boy. I love it, I really do, but I miss that tiny baby he was. I never knew breastfeeding would mean so much to me or that it would make me feel this way. I am so thankful for the almost 12 months that my body was able to provide nutrition for my baby. And the bond that was formed from that. I'm proud of myself and of my body. Ok...I'm going to go drown my sorrows in ice cream now.


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Fever

Jackson has had a fever on and off since Tuesday afternoon (it's Monday now so almost a week). I kept saying "if he's not better tomorrow I'll call the doctor and make an appointment". Well every morning he seemed better and then later in the day he'd have a fever, and some of the days he didn't and was fine. Friday and Saturday he was ok but yesterday the fever came back to 102.6 and he wasn't himself. This morning his temp was 99.0 which isn't bad but it had gone on too long so I called and made an appointment. We went in and saw a different dr then we usually see and I really liked him. He was really nice and cute too ;). Anyways J looks great. Ears, throat, lungs are all clear. Dr thinks it just must be something his body is fighting off. Since his fever was lower this morning he's hoping it's over and the fever will go away. He just said to keep a close eye on him. We've been really struggling with nursing lately. Sometimes he just doesn't want to nurse. I've been thawing my frozen milk and giving it to him in sippy cups and he drinks it really well but I don't have enough frozen milk to get us to his first birthday. I've been nursing him first thing in the am, before his naps and at bedtime but he usually only nurses well first thing in the morning. Well I talked to the dr and he said it's fine to start giving him whole milk. So I'm going to keep nursing first thing in the morning and before bed but cut out daytime nursing and just to sippy cups. I'm going to get some whole milk and start mixing it in with breastmilk. I did talk to him about how J was sensitive to dairy and it used to upset his tummy but he's had cheese and dairy and it hasn't bothered him so he said go ahead and start whole milk and see how he does and if it seems to upset his tummy then we can talk again and see.

I'm sad and happy to start weaning. I know I will miss it, but I'm excited to have my body back.


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11 months!

Holy cow Jackson is 11 months old today!!! How and when did that happen?!?! He's growing up way too fast! Sometimes I look at him and think he looks so much like a little boy, and other times still like my little baby! I can't even believe that in one month he will be a year old. We did his 1 year photos last weekend, with selling the house and moving back to ca and everything going on right now I just wanted to make sure I got them done so we did them a little early. It was fun! We did a cake smash and he LOVED the cake. I can't wait to see the pictures!

At 11 months Jackson is crawling like crazy! He pulling up on everything and has gotten so much more stable with pulling up and standing over the past month. He's also learned to be careful when he sits back down. It's so funny to watch him! He's learning cause and effect, like when he drops something it falls on the ground and someone will pick it up for him. Now when I say "do you want milk/water/food" he pulls his bink out (and now usually throws it).


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Whole 30 day 6 = FAIL

So I completely fell off the whole 30 wagon...I had been doing so good too.

We had showing yesterday and had to be out of the house from 2-4. So I attempted to get J to take a later morning nap then usual. Then I found out the girl that was going to make J's cake for his 1st bday pictures THIS Saturday probably won't be able to make the cake...ahhhh. And there was a shirt I really wanted for J's pictures so we decided to go to trolley square to go to american appeal to get it. My mom and I went there and josh went to renew his car registration then he wanted to meet up for a late lunch/early dinner. He wanted chilis. By this point it was after 2pm and I was so hungry. And I was craving a dr pepper. So I ordered a dr pepper and then caved and ordered fajitas...with flour tortialls and you better believe I used sour cream, cheese and rice. Then my mom and I went and got sub zero ice cream and once we got home I had wine.

Hopefully I got it all out of my system and I'm starting over again starting today. So annoying!

It's also really hard to do this diet without any real support or someone doing it with you. My mom is of course encouraging of me, but she says she's going to do it but she just complains about all the things she can't have. And josh pretty much just teases me about it. I wish josh would do it with me, that would make it so much easier.


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Whole 30 day 4

No pictures today.

For breakfast I had scrabbled egg whites (I forgot to buy eggs yesterday) and carrots.
For lunch I had sesame chicken salad (same as yesterday's dinner) but I added sunflower seeds. Yummy!
For dinner I had speghetti with meat sauce with zucchini noodles. It was good! I added 2 small onions to the meat and have enough meat mix to make tacos!

I kinda felt guilty when I was eating dinner, even though it wasn't as good as with real pasta noodles, I still felt like I was cheating even though I wasn't! I guess that's a good thing?!


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Whole 30 day 3

I didn't take pictures of my meals today. We were supposed to have a showing from 1-2 so we had to be out of the house. I had scrambled eggs with bacon and some carrots for breakfast. I spent the morning cleaning the house and then grabbed a larabar as we headed out the door. I had intended to eat a better lunch but it didn't happen so at least I had a larabar to grab. We shopped and then came home. Turns out they didn't even show our house :(. Boo. For dinner I had a big salad with chicken, black olives and sesame dressing. The dressing has soybean oil so it's not actually whole 30 approved, oops. But it was really good. And healthy. And then I had some strawberries and Rainer cherries for a snack! Yummy!

I weighed myself this morning and it was better then I was expecting. Not a good number at all but I was expecting worse. I thought at the very least it would be 215, but realistically after being on vacation last week and not working out for 2 weeks I was expecting to see 220. I was pleasantly surprised to see 212! Here are pictures I took today. I can't wait to compare at the end of these 30 days and (hopefully) see a big difference!









I don't actually have a full length mirror in our house, well my mom had one in her room in the basement, but I have never been happy with myself in the 3 years we've lived here and so I've never boughten a full length mirror for our house. So these will have to do.

I'm already feeling better about myself though. Slimmer and healthier, although when I look in the mirror I'm reminded that I have a long way to go. But if I'm already feeling better on day 3 I can't imagine how I'll feel on day 30!!!



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Whole 30 day 2

Today was day 2. Here's what I ate


Breakfast was scrambled eggs with bacon mixed in and about 2 cups of carrots. I put the carrots in a bag so I could eat them on the way to stroller strides and I didn't actually finish them until after stroller strides.
For lunch I used the rest of the taco meat (ground beef, bell peppers and onions) to make a salad with lettuce and the chipotle ranch dressing. It was really good.
Dinner was a hamburger salad and sweet potatoes fries! I found a paleo ketchup at whole foods, it might not be completely whole 30 approved, but I love my ketchup.
For dessert I had some strawberries!



I'm slowly decreasing the amount of creamer I'm using in my coffee in hopes of being able to drink it black since you aren't supposed to have creamer. So I'm not technically following the whole 30 100% yet. I'm hoping I'll still have good results.

One of the hardest things has been not having cheese! It's been hard to not put it on my scrambled eggs, on the tacos, my salad and my burger. I don't really miss it once I'm eating the food though. I'm also still wanting to snack, out of habit, but the food I'm eating is keeping me full enough to not give in to the snacking temptation/craving.

I'm really hoping this plus stroller strides 3 days a week will help me lose weight before we move back to CA!


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Whole 30

So I've decided to do the whole 30. I heard about from a girl at stroller strides and then read the book she recommended, "It starts with food". It makes a lot of sense to me after reading the book and I know my diet is a big issue when it comes to not being able to lose weight. When I say diet I mean what I eat not diet like "I'm going on a diet." More like my diet is crappy, I eat a high carb, high sugar, lots of junk food diet. Anyways, the whole 30 isn't supposed to be a weight lose diet, it's what I would call a healthy food makeover plan I guess. But if you are overweight one of the effects of the diet will be weight loss.

I started it yesterday and I am going to try to post daily to hold myself accountable for what I'm eating and make sure I'm sticking to it.

Here's what I ate yesterday:



For breakfast I had scrambled eggs with bell peppers and spinach, and strawberries.
Lunch was a salad from whole foods while we were out running errands.
Dinner was tacos on lettuce. Just seasoned ground beef with bell peppers and onions with chipotle ranch (whole 30 approved recipe) on top.
For snacks I had some bake dried mango and almonds. I also had a few strawberries before bed.

I know you aren't supposed to weigh yourself on this but I'm going to because I'm hoping to lose weight and that will keep me motivated! I'm thinking I'll probably just weigh myself on Fridays so a week from today. I didn't weigh myself today so I'll have to do it tomorrow morning.

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Pneumonia

Jackson has Pneumonia. Saturday we left Carpinteria after spending a week there on vacation. After being in the car all day and in traffic for 2 hours before getting to our hotel he was so tired and upset. We went and ate quickly at the buffet and then got to our room. I bathed him and he got upset and had a hard time settling back down. He woke up a few times and was a little warm, but I didn't think anything of it. Sunday we headed out for the rest of our drive home and when we stopped in the afternoon he was warm and fussy. I figured maybe he was teething. I gave him Tylenol in the car and he slept. We got into town just as we were going to have showing of our home so we had to stay gone longer. So we met josh at target and then went and ate. He was warm and I gave him Motrin and put him to bed. He woke up in the middle of the night really warm. I gave him more Motrin and put a cool wash cloth on his head. It was hot in his room so I turned down the air temp and turned in the fan in his room. Once his room was cooler I put him to bed and he slept well the rest of the night and slept in. Monday he was still warm but mainly his happy self. We had to go out for another showing and he was pretty happy. Once we got home he fell asleep on my lap and was just really sleepy and once he woke up he was really lethargic. He just wanted to lay there. I was going to try to give him some dinner and I took him upstairs to change his diaper first and he was kind of shaking and shallow breathing. I laid with him next to josh on our bed and started to get really worried about him. So I took him back downstairs for my mom to hold him and see if I was just overreacting about how he was acting. She was immediately worried so we decided to take him to the ER since the pedi was already closed. Josh had to work tonight so he had to get a few things done and then he'd met us at the hospital. We got there and j was just so out of it. Poor baby was miserable. We got called back by the triage guy and he weighed J and then had us go into a room so he could get J's temp with a rectal thermometer. I was watching the digital screen and the number just kept going up. It was 105.3! I didn't even know you could get a temp that high. Last time I had checked it at home it had been 99 something. Holy shit! My heart broke for him and I was so worried. He was really nice and told me "it's ok, we'll get it down. We'll take care of him." He took is back to a room and the nurse came in and then a dr. Luckily my mom was with me and could tell them what was going on because I was crying. I felt so bad for him. They gave him Tylenol and Ibuprofen and then the dr examined him and after listening the his chest ordered a chest xray. He was a very very tiny bit congested and I honestly didn't even think anything about it because he's that way pretty often. She said she wanted to make sure it wasn't Pneumonia. We waited awhile and he started to feel a little better as the meds brought the fever down. Josh came by shortly before he had to go to work. They took the chest X-ray. It was horrible, but only lasted a minute. There's a special table with holes for the babies legs and then these clear pieces that go up around the baby around their body and hold their hands up in the air. J hated it. Here's a picture I found online of the chair thing



The dr came back about 20 minutes later and said she could the start of pneumonia on his lungs so she said she's give him amoxicillin and were lucky we caught it so quickly and can start the amox so soon. That way he won't have the other symptoms (breathing issues etc.) pneumonia usually causes.

J was more like himself by the time we left the hospital. We came home, I bathed him and put him to bed. I was expecting a rough night. J woke up quite a few times and I brought him into bed with me and cuddled with him and then once he was asleep I'd put him back into his room. We did that a few times and then in the early morning I brought him to bed and we slept there a few more hours. He was mostly sleepy and slept on me or my mom all day. By evening he was more himself.

Wednesday he was pretty much back to himself! He woke up cool, not feverish. We had a follow up appointment with his pedi and he said everything looks good, just keep up with the amox. They weighed him and he's 22.5 oz now! He's gained over 1 lb since his 9 month well check. We went to the grocery store then home and he napped. He was his happy silly self. Except after I put him to bed he woke up about an hour later and was crying so hard and just so upset. He wouldn't nurse. I let him lay in our bed for awhile and then finally I just went into his room and rocked him until he fell asleep.

Today we went to his little gym class and he was his happy self. He still seems a little more sleepy then usual but overall back to himself. Tonight he did the same thing as last night at bed time, he woke up about an hour after being put to bed. All day today I've had a really hard time nursing him. He just doesn't want to nurse. He screams and pulls away from me. He did it tonight too. First josh went in there and tried to rock him, no go. Then I went and tried and he wouldn't have it. So I brought him into our bed and tried to nurse him again but he wouldn't. He laid in our bed for a little while before I put him back in his crib. He moved around a bit and then finally fell asleep. Hopefully he'll stay asleep!

Sick sleepy baby (earlier in the day before we went to the ER):





In the hospital once he was feeling a little better:








Snuggles in the middle of the night in bed with momma:


More snuggles in the morning:


Sleeping on nana:


Finally happy boy again:


And his appetite picked back up!

9 month old!

Today's Jackson is 9 months old! I can't even believe how fast time is going by!

On Friday I took him for his 9 month well baby check and he's doing great! We always make guesses about his weight, Nana's was 20, mine was 21, and daddy guesses 22. He was 20.14 so I was closest! Mama always knows lol! He's 28.1" tall and dr says he looks great!

He's now officially crawling! He also army crawls sometimes too. He has one tooth that has broken through and is still coming up. Teething doesn't seem to bother him too much, he occasionally gets a little fussy. I want to get him an amber teething necklace. He's recently started to try to pull up on things and he loves standing up, although still needs a bit of support or he'll fall. He's a dare devil and loves going upside down, spinning in circles, swinging, etc. He's always on the move now and doesn't sit still. It's hard to nurse him because he gets so distracted and wants to look at and get into everything!

He's curious about everything and loves playing with his toys and reading books. He's mainly in size 12 month clothing now, although sometimes 9 months still fits. He's wearing size 3 diapers during the day (target or kroger brand) and size 4 pampers or Huggies overnight diapers.

He sleeps great. I'm still working on bedtime, trying to get him to go to sleep later and sleep in later. Seems like no matter what time he goes to bed he's awake by 7. I'm hoping if I stick with a later bedtime he'll start sleeping later. He usually takes a 1 1/2 morning nap around 9 and a 2 hour afternoon nap around 12:30 or 1. Since I started stroller strides his nap schedule is messed up on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays but we just kinda wing it and he does well. Sometimes he'll take a 20 minute nap in the car and be good to go for a few more hours. He pretty much goes with the flow and is an easy going baby.

He loves food! He's still eating purées but is also eating pretty much anything and everything. Purées are just so easy, especially to up into the re usable pouches and give him on the go. But he loves "real food". Right now he's really loving watermelon. He's also a huge fan of Mac and cheese and bread.

He's great with his hands. He moves things easily from one hand to the other and is good at picking things up with his fingers. He sees every speck on the floor and goes for it. I have to be really careful about keeping the floors clean!










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My first Mother's Day

Yesterday was my first Mother's Day. I woke up and got my coffee and Jackson actually slept in. Josh said happy Mother's Day to me and then got up and went into his office. He came back with a package. My mom and I saw the package by the front door on Friday and I knew what it was. I had sent him 2 links to 2 different diaper bags on the petunia pickle bottom outlet sale. I knew he had no idea what to get me and I love those bags and since I will be using a diaper bag for the next few years I wanted a really nice one, but if course I wasn't going to by myself one. Anyways, when we saw it by the door I told her that I bet he hands me the box just like that and he won't wrap it or even open it. And that's exactly what happened. Oh well. I love the bag he chose out of the 2 I sent him. He also got me sees candy. He didn't get me a card and I was really hurt about that. I know it's stupid to get upset over something so small but it's my first Mother's Day and I wanted a card to put into J's scrapbook. Well luckily my mom got me a super cute card from J to me! She even put a hand and food print of his in it! She also gave me a target gift card, bought me some makeup at ulta and paid for my first month of stroller strides! I also got a card in the mail from Greg and Judy with a $50 visa gift card. We went out to dinner to rodizio grill, a Brazilian restaurant downtown. We had a nice dinner.

I had so many emotions going on Saturday night and yesterday. On Saturday night J was so tired he fell asleep while nursing. I tried to get him to wake up and eat more because he didn't nurse for long enough but he was out. So I put him in his crib and when he woke up crying at 10pm I wasn't surprised. So I went into his room and sat in the glider and nursed him. And I was overwhelmed with the love that I have for this little guy. I'm so incredible lucky to be his mom. I love being a mom, I feel like it's exactly what I was made to do. I'm amazed by this precious little boy and so thankful that I get to be his momma.














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10 weeks

Only 10 weeks until we head to CA to spend a week at the beach with my family. That means it's time to get my shit together and get serious about my weight loss. There's no way I can get to where I want to be by then, BUT if I work really hard I can make big difference from where I am now.

Today the weather was really nice (72!!!) so I got out the jogging stroller and did couch to 5k day 1 with Jackson! And then when I put him down for his nap I did day 4 of the bikini body mommy challenge! I'm hoping that the weather will just keep getting nicer and I can do the c25k workout in the am before breakfast and then the bikini body mommy challenge after I put him down for his morning nap!

As far as eating I'm trying to have an English muffin with peanut butter or toast in the morning and then chicken with veggies for lunch and dinner and healthy snacks, like an apple and string cheese, grapes, a few crackers with cheese.


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Sick

So on Wednesday I got what I can only guess was the stomach flu. It was horrible! I felt so crappy. The worst was in the afternoon/evening. Luckily my mom fed J his dinner and played with him until bath time and then josh bathed him and get him ready for bed, I nursed him and then josh put him to bed. I felt a lot better on the morning, just achy and tired and my head hurt. But I wasn't puky anymore so that was good! Thankfully J didn't get sick.

Anyways in a way this sorta helped my diet efforts. I was kinda falling off the diet wagon. When I started feeling better I didn't want to eat anything that would upset my stomach so I had toast and then chicken noodle soup. Since I've been sick I've been better about my eating. I've been better about eating smaller portions and not over eating. I made a bunch of meals for myself, chicken and veggies and put them into Tupperware and into the fridge and freezer. So that'll help. Last night we had a "bad" meal and had stuffed pork chop loins and mashed potatoes and I didn't finish it. I'm trying to eat smaller amounts every few hours. Even if it's just a granola bar.

Katharine will be here this weekend so I don't expect my eating to be perfect but once she leaves my plan is to have toast, or an English muffin breakfast sandwhich or English muffin with peanut butter for breakfast, chicken and veggies for lunch and dinner and for snacks on between have fruit and string cheese, granola bars, a few crackers, stuff like that.

I was also doing to the bikini body mommy challenge videos but had to put a hold on that from being sick. I really need to get back to those! And I can't wait for warmer weather so I can take J on more walk. I'm thinking that I'm going to try to do the couch to 5k workouts with him in the jogging stroller in the mornings. Were also going to try stroller strides. There is one just starting here in utah (in daybreak) the grand opening is April 30th. So if we like that and I join that will hopefully be a great workout for me to do. I think it's sort of expensive (like $60 a month) BUT if it's 5 or 6 days a week and I actually go 5-6 days a week and it's a good workout I think it would be worth it. And too hopefully meet some other moms. So we'll see how that first class goes and then decide.


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7 month pics!

I finally got around to taking J's 7 month pics. He was actually 7 1/2 months, but better late then never!
Here are a few of my favs:











And some more pics from this month:
Playing on the floor


He loves reading books


Snuggling with his (creepy) bunny nana got him at ikea


Playing on the floor with daddy


More reading! It makes my heart happy that he already loves books!


He fell asleep across my lap!


I never want to forget his features when he was this little. Perfect little ears, fingers, and do you see those lashes?!


This face! Love him


My leg makes a good head rest





Pushing himself back onto the hard floors


And back...


And ohhhh what is this?!


If I hit it, it makes noise!


Pancakes!











Reading





Rocking him to sleep before his nap. I love these moments


Sad face baby!





Asleep in his car seat


I was eating an apple, he wanted some...





And got pissed when I took it away


Awww.


Trying to eat dinner around this kid is getting harder and harder!


Little snooze on Momma's chest <3


Omg! I got him these chucks at babies r us on clearance for $6.99! They are a size 4 so the won't for him for awhile. The were next to the sale ones and there was only 1 display pair and then this pair in a box and they didn't have a sale sticker so I didn't think they were on sale but I decided to ask anyways and I'm do glad I did because they are so stinkin cute!





Snuggling with glowy during his nap


I really need to do an end of the week photo post each week so I don't have so many pics to post at one time!

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